welcome 2011?

i know this is really not a good entry to open the year 2011 considering that I'm very hopeful that this year is the year for me! but this has been keeping me awake at night , and i have been holding on to this feeling for so long. but now I cant. really cant. call me emo, call me melodramatic. or call me selfish or self centered. well its your call.

my feeling right now is full of negativity, well you cannot really see it physically but the feeling I have is beyond words. i dont know if im just resistant to the change or this is just too much for me. there is really so much going on. and i really cant absorb everything.

feeling ko i shouldn't be in this situation, the responsibility is too high. the expectation is too much. its really hard to be strong kasi im really weak and im not really the type who handles this type of issues.